I WILL write those personal blog entries...but not right now. I'm not in the mood.
(the offer does however still stands)

Today would be my parents 27th wedding anniversary.
But not really.
I completely forgot. Merde.
Now I'm really depressed.
Yesterday they had a memorial service for him at Kenmore Mercy and they're having an honoring ceremony type thing at ECC for him, but as usual I can't go.
This sucks.

i just aint the same without you in my life
late night drives, all alone in my car
i can't help but start
singing lines from all our favorite songs
and melodies in the air
singin life just aint fair
sometimes i still just can't believe you're gone
and im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven,
maybe we'll make it through one more year
down here

feel your fire,
when its cold in my heart
and things sorta start
remindin' me of my last night with you
i only need one more day
just one more chance to say
i wish that i had gone up with you too
and i'm sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven
maybe we'll make it through one more year
down here

you wont be comin' back
and i didn't get to say goodbye
i really wish i got to say goodbye
and im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven
maybe we'll make it through one more year
i hope that all is well in heaven
cause it's all shot to hell down here
i hope that i find you in heaven
cause i'm so...
lost without you down here
you wont be coming back
and i didn't get to say goodbye
i really wish i got to say gooooodbye
~Yellowcard

What's a dad for dad?
Tell me why I'm here dad
Whisper in my ear that I'm growing up to be a better man, dad
Everything is fine dad
Proud that you are mine dad
Cause I know I'm growing up to be a better man

Father I will always be
That same boy that stood by the sea
And watched you tower over me
Now I'm older I wanna be the same as you

What's a dad for dad?
Taught me how to stand, dad
Took me by the hand and you showed me how to be a bigger man, dad
Listen when you talk, dad
Follow where you walk, dad
And you know that I will always do the best I can
I can

Father I will always be (always be)
That same boy that stood by the sea
And watched you tower over me (over me)
Now I'm older I wanna be the same as you
The same as you

Father I will always be
That same boy that stood by the sea
And watched you tower over me
Now I'm older I wanna be the same as you

Did the best you could, dad
Always understood, dad
Tell me I was right, dad
Opened up my eyes, dad
Proud to call you my, dad
Thank you for my life dad
~Yellowcard

I wonder if you're alone up there
Since you've been gone, I've been alone down here
He told me that I would be OK
When he said don't worry, and you'll be fine
It's only a matter, a matter of time

Now days have passed, and weeks have too
All I think about is how I miss you
He told me that I would be OK
But I feel the same that I felt that day
~Mest (adapted)

I love you Daddy. I always will.