Ok enough of these cold heartless posts, I'm gonna try to get personal now, I guess.
This morning my mom woke me up and took me to St. Joes for church. I hate going to St. Joes because I don't really know anyone who goes there unless Father Jack does the mass and then its cool because random other Newman Center people are there and that's always sweet because I hate it when my church goes through a change (who am I kidding? I hate change!) and then everyone leaves. I went to the same really liberal church my whole life and suddenly some moron comes in and I hafta switch churches because he's so stupid. So St. Andy's is cool, its not what I was brought up on, but I love the people there. So I just don't like going to St. Joes and it always makes me cry. Especially today when there was this father in front of me playing with his son and when his son came back from crying the man was just so happy to see him, and I was thinking about how happy I always was to see my Daddy just because I love him so so much, that's what it would be like. Anyway, I just love my daddy so much and I started bawling in the middle of church, which I actually haven't done for like a month...ok that's a lie I did it Father's Day but that's obvious. I cried more today though. I made us leave. And then they played "Battle Hymn of the Republic" as the last song which made me really mad (read: sad) because like I love that song but they played it at all the funerals I've been to recently and I started crying and that made me think about all the times I've been crying at funerals to that song recently and I started freaking so I was like "mom, let's go!" and she was like "let's stop in the community room" so we did but *surprise!* we didn't know anyone there so we left. I miss my Daddy.
Then I came home and fell asleep while my mom went and bought stuff for the July 4th party.
I drove all the way out to my Aunt's house in Hamburg! I hate driving, but I'm getting better. I actually hung out with my cousins today, and my aunts and uncles, but I usually end up hanging by myself. I mean, I have 30 cousins--you'd think one of them would be my age!!! In family news, my cousin (burping kid) got married. Also, most of my Aunts are giving me stuff for college so that's cool. I like my family because all of my uncles are just like my Daddy...you know what I mean. Its sweet. Also it was wonderful because Dr. and Mrs. Kim came!! SURPRISE!! That was wonderful!!
We left early and I drove past city hall because we were going to see the goo goo dolls but I guess it WASN't rained out like I thought it would be. Ah, I never liked this holiday anyway! John Adams died and still we celebrate!! He said that we would celebrate July SECOND darn it.
Wow, has anyone ever noticed I'm a nerd?
You know what else? I'm just so lucky to have such a wonderful boyfriend who I love and who loves me. (Even though I love him more...:) ) The other day when we went to the movies I had a thought and I was like "ooh! I hope I can sit next to Brian!" and then I was like "duh, of course I do! I'm so lucky!" and it was just a wonderful feeling. I love you, Brian!! :)
That's all, I'm going to watch the original Stepford Wives now.
Happy 4th.